Smoke Screen

Those who truly know me often say I’m too honest.
because I can easily say things like
“it was just sex” or “I never had an orgasm”
but the truth of it all is that I can say these so easily
because they help me keep
other secrets that if shared
would certainly make me weep…
I know for most women the heart is hidden
between their legs as much as it is within their chests
and sex is rarely ever just sex…
but if you’re like me and you learn early in life
that the ones you love will never really love you back
and that the only thing they seem to appreciate is your sex
it ceases to be a sacred ritual of love
and morphs into being the only thing you can control…
so you learn to give yourself separately,
instead of body and soul…
you learn to live life
half asleep and half awake
because you can see clearly
that if you don’t, it’s your heart, that will break.
just like an old and fragile building after a disastrous earthquake...
if you let it, your heart will break!