WISH...

If I could close my eyes and will my love away, 

I would do so without delay. 

If I could find any way 

Out of this endless night into the day, 

It would, finally add some color into all this nasty gray, 

Just like cute little daisies that suddenly appear 

amidst green pastures, in the virgin month of May. 

I wish I hadn’t lost my way, 

then maybe, my dreams could avoid decay… 

I wish I hadn’t lost my way. 

I would willingly go to some mountain elsewhere 

And bravely face the unknown; maybe even battle the fray… 

If I thought that there was the slightest chance that someday, 

I’d find another love this strong, to keep me safe from disarray. 

I would will myself free of this one, gladly, and 

Without reservations, forego my expectations of a payday. 

I wish I hadn’t lost my way, 

then maybe, my wait wouldn’t have been in vain, so ruthlessly trapped in desperate shades of gray… 

I wish I hadn’t lost my way. 

If I believed that it would make you come back out to play, 

I would gladly give up all future rounds of rolling in hay, 

with no complaints nor desires to call Mayday. 

I would wish it all away if I could, 

Right this minute, if I actually believed I had a say. 

Sadly, “my” desires don’t pack much heat, nor do they carry sway. 

In the grand scheme of things I’m only a misspent girl, 

Looking to find just one blue-skied, bright and sunny day. 

But these days, all I seem to attract is 

Mayhem at the end of each risky game I play. 

And all I keep bringing upon myself is 

Heartache, that plans on being here to stay. 

I wish I hadn’t lost my way, 

then maybe, this heartache would go away… 

I wish I hadn’t lost my way. 

then maybe, for once I’d get lucky and save the day! 

I wish and hope… 

And then hope and wish… 

That someday soon, I will find a way 

To fly off to my fairytale-land far, far away 

Where happy endings and love come easily and they stay, 

While pink butterflies & blue birds frolic, 

as tiny kittens & puppies peacefully play. 

I wish I hadn’t lost my way. 

But since I already have, I now wish, I will find it someday! 

Who knows, maybe today?