The 10 Minutes From Dreaming to Awake...

For 10 minutes today, I didn't remember you were gone, and no longer just a phone call away... For 10 minutes I was able to imagine maybe having a wedding day someday... For just 10 minutes I was whole again, feeling warm and cherished the way I had all my life, being your little girl. As the fog of sleep slowly lifted, and reality started seeping in, I got the strongest urge to call you, just to hear your voice and make sure you weren't mad at me for somethIng since you hadn't called in a while, only to remember you couldn't pick up. You could only watch over me from far, far away... where I couldn't see or feel you. And all I had left of you were a few photos and childhood videos, old T-shirts that I often sleep in and the memory of once upon a time, feeling truly loved. I miss you...